When the peace rages with the storm

"A little more then I can give,
   A little more then i deserve
   Unearth this holiness I can't earn

   With all this sin that lives in me,
   It took a nail to set me free

WITH ALL THIS MOTIVATION I STILL FIND A HESITATION
DEEP IN MY SOUL
DESPITE ALL MY DEMANDING I STILL FIND YOU UNDERSTANDING
SHOW ME GRACE, SHOW ME GRACE I KNOW"

-Jennifer Knapp

For the first time in a long time, I don't want to go to sleep because I feel so much peace.  Sometimes I don't want to sleep because I am having too much fun. Or sometimes I want to sleep to get to the next day and next adventure. And alot of times, I want to sleep to get to the peaceful part. That feeling of peace that happens right before we enter the land of z's. But tonight, I just want to sit here and be thankful and happy  in this great peace God has given me.

Psalm 119:68 "You are good and do good..." 

He's good, ya'll. Always. And when I struggle with this, and i question and I hurt and I long to just know the answers and for life to turn out better or differently- He's good then, too. When I long for Jesus, He's good. He's always good and He does good. Life is our sanctification process. That's all it is. That's what my dear friend Jon told me today- and I believe he's right. I'm being sanctified, and in that, God's still good. He is always good. 



So thankful for how God uses people to bless us.



dodging serendipities

Howdy, goobers. I always think I am so good at blogging...and then I realize I blog...like, oh once a month. MY BAD.  I'm not good at it. My life is much too busy and important to blog about. (this is not true, I am prideful). 

My heart's heavy. I don't get cancer. I don't understand death. And I'm clinging with white knuckles to the fact that God knows more then I do.  If you are a praying person, please lift up Mr. E to the Lord for a miraculous healing and for his family to have so much comfort from the Lord during this time.


Today, I am thankful for these sweet friendships I have.  In moments when all I can do is sit and hurt, I realize how precious our Father is for allowing people to love each other and carry each other's burdens.  I am also thankful for some good ol' DP today.

I had the amazing privilege to hang out with 16 11th graders this weekend who love Jesus and love each other. God did some major work in my heart.

Love you guys!!

My heavy heart is thankful. It's hurting, but it is grateful. Thank you Jesus for redemption.

"The gospel is absurd and the life of Jesus is meaningless unless we believe that He lived, died, and rose again with but one purpose in mind: to make brand-new creation. Not to make people with better morals but to create a community of prophets and professional lovers, men and women who would surrender to the mystery of the fire of the Spirit that burns within, who would live in ever greater fidelity to the omnipresent Word of God, who would enter into the center of it all, the very heart and mystery of Christ, into the center of the flame that consumes, purifies, and sets everything aglow with peace, joy, boldness, and extravagant, furious love. This, my friend, is what it really means to be a Christian."  -Brennan Manning

Love ya'll.